"is there anybody out there"

If anybody still reads this blog
come save me
you know where to find me
come take me home before.....

Come pick me up

do you miss me at all
I wonder why you haven't called
why you threw me under a bus
and why you decided I wasn't worth the chance
I wonder all the time
But mostly I wish you'd tell me what I did wrong
So come on baby do you miss me at all?

You never had me

cut so deep the scars will never heal
I'm gonna fall so hard I will never land
wild at heart
fuck it
my life consists of running
I will never be in one place I am falling apart
baby and you will never catch me
the whore is back
you didn't break my heart
who am I kidding I don't have one
how the hell could you not tell her the truth?
Yes I love him and I will be with him till the end of time
but you made me look like a fucking moron
like I was chasing something that didn't exist
yeah that's why you said everything you said
my god
I pity you
pathetic excuse of a man
go to hell
you'll never be anything more than what you are right now
and for that I will be satisfied
enjoy your mediocre life

Nobody girl

once bitten twice shy
she fucks to feel
or maybe not at all

passenger side ghost of
someone she never really knew
haunted by yesterday
terrified by tomorrow
she doesn't know what's real

Looking at him she thinks
" I could love you the way you need if only
you'd let me"
she shakes her head and knows
he won't let her in
she'll wait a little longer
 before she says goodbye

Take my hand and lets go

beauty sets on the sun
age passes by
it's the small things
that are forgotten with time
but end up meaning the most
closing eyes remember yesterday
to never look upon tomorrow
 they meet death in a dance
a partner for eternity
death has a meaning
and so does life
they go hand in hand
creating sorrow and joy
cutting in to one another
taking different partners
maybe life and death
 are lovers that can never be
and we are caught in the crossfire
just casualties of a war
that never ends

Somebody Inspire Me

I die before I wake
everyday
I'm lost
the past does not hold the answers I'm looking for
Who I am
is not who I expected to be

I need...

I need him to tell me I'm beautiful on a daily basis
I need her to tell me she loves me still
bc I don't understand why I can't come home
I need you to tell me that you love me

Things I can't put on twitter

I can't find my damn lighter
I really wanna makeout with my bullshitter

I miss kissing more than fucking

I'm a Storm Warning

I almost left but I couldn't find a perfect shell like the ones daddy used to
I even prayed....
but for now the sea and I weren't meant to be

       don't make me regret my choice

I'll be hauled off in high heels and handcuffs

If this fails
you'll find me on the beach
my heart can't take another break
this one will jade me beyond reach
a warning
to all those
don't try to save me
crazy men make crazy women
and I'm in the running
remember this always
I know better than this
but my heart just stays
so when he breaks it this time
all the prozac in the world can't save me
just let me be
hell bent on self destruction
and heartbreak

Stanzas for Music 1815 Lord Byron

They say that hope is Happiness,
  but genuine Love must prize the past
And Memory wakes the thoughts that bless;
 They rose the first they set the last;

And all that Memory loves the most
 was once our only Hope to be
And all that Hope adored and lost
 hath melted into Memory

Alas!it is delusion all:
 the future cheats us from afar,
Nor can be waht we recall,
 nor dare we think on what we are.

Love conquers all

I crave sunflowers in July
a sunrise with you
beaches full of memories

a tattoo of yesterday today and tomorrow

oh and lets fast forward 5 years