letter #1

I really needed you tonight
just to hear your voice
to hear anything
I need a hug and you're not here
I can't stop crying because I see my baby brother suffer
why does your phone have to be dead
why.....do I need you like this why
I love you so much baby
I guess I rely on you too much
I just want someone to hold me
so i don't have to feel alone
I hate feeling alone

You're my favorite bright crayon

"So brown eyes I hold you near

Cause you’re the only song I want to hear"


The smell of honeysuckle hits me
as I drive down kingston
 headed to the park
my park knowing you won't be there
you're about 90 miles west of me
but I can't go back right now
not with everyone at home counting on me
I don't do great with change
all I want is your arms wrapped about me
instead I'm alone in my room
staring at my phone
old school death cab blaring
Soul meets body
Summer begins and together we aren't physically
but in spirit always
do you miss me as much as I miss you?
has it sunk in yet?
do you hate sleeping alone?
do you miss telling me how to drive
having someone to be with always?
Can a dog replace someone like me?
I'm your crazy little girl
who would cover the world in sparkles and pearls
if she could
I miss you
I thought by now I would have run far away
but I can't do that
my hearts with you
I don't know if you understand
it yet but you saved me from myself

Sunflowers of Time

The smell of strawberry lemonade


Reminds me of my mother

Her hair blowing in the wind of open windows

Looking perfectly in love with my father

As she dances with him with

To wicked game and doesn’t realize I’m out of bed

I forgot to put the plastic flowers on your grave daddy

I miss you tonight because I’m not sure where I’m going

And I fall in more in love each day

Ready or Not......here I am

Questions big and little
do I start a new one
let the memories of the old one fade to grey
just like the ones in the past
as I change I look inside to remember who I am
it goes beyond my clothes and hair
my skin no longer the same
and somehow
I feel like I know myself better
as if no longer relying on the external
I found the internal again
little girl lost
now little girl found
I guess you do
 really love me underneath it all

Collide

your fingers in my hair
and the conversations we have
are neverending
round and round
we go
and I close my eyes
remembering the way
it once was
all I want is someone
to hold my hand
is that to much to ask?

Bye Bye

I'm sick of living for you
So I'm leaving
slowly but surely
I'll make sure you're ok
but I can't remain around forever
if only I had kept my mouth shut
we would be on the beach right this moment
and you would have asked me to be yours
of course
that will never happen now
you're the kind of girl I can marry
but I can't date
is all you ever say
so bye bye for now
but for the record
I still love you
even if we aren't meant to be

I just want you to be the one to hold my hand

You came like a thief in the night
through the backdoor in my heart
while I was on guard in the front
with walls up and doors locked
just in case you tried anything
with watchful eyes I think I'm all alone
except I feel your hand wrap about my waist
as you pull me in
your breath on my neck
and when our eyes met
I just knew
I'd fallen for you