PROVE ME WRONG

It's new years eve
I have a dress that
sparkles
 waiting to be worn
accompanied by
fuck me heels
I should be on my way
downtown
getting ready
to meet my midnight kiss
someone to fuck me into
the new year
but baby
I hung up those
heels
so now I wait patiently
painting my nails
red
better
to scratch
down your back
my dear
with the lights on
run another mile or two
maybe I can forget
you
or maybe not

Fire and ice

Truthfully most nights
I sleep with my boots on
And my keys beside me
I guess more than anything
I just want to feel protected
Because I can't
remember the last
Time I did
So now I'm fighting sleep
I called you a coward
 but in reality that's me
I acted like a whore
Last night
It's my fallback
My comfort zone
Your's is being cold
I can't break your walls down baby
But I'll be here when you get back

Bartender this one's for you

We are all just a generation of lost souls
She muses
As she takes a drag off her cigarette
She looks for salvation in a pack of cigarettes
Diet coke
And whatever boy lay in her bed
Still reeling from her last breakdown
She's actually alone tonight for once
And the silence drives her mad

Kindred spirit

It's 2 am and you thought he'd call by now
Saying he was sorry
Made a mistake
It's 2 am
And you can't sleep
It's 2 am and this has fucked with your head way harder than you thought it would
Bc for the first time in years
You let someone see you
See how messed up you can be
Coming at them like a hurricane
And it fucks with you
Bc in the end you know how
You look
Pathetic
WEAK
You built that wall for a reason
 he begged for it to come down
You dated someone for almost two years
and it never came down
This kid shot through it
In hours
Like it was made of glass
And you can't figure out why
It bothers you so much
Still it's 2 am
And you're alone
Smoking the days last cigarette
Wondering where he is

Moleskinemusings

I'd rather you
See me naked
Than let you inside
My head
And as for my heart
I'd rather you just didn't
Fucking
 is so much easier than love