Friday, January 28, 2011


3:28 am

We left the ordinary behind
and embraced the unknown

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Brilliant thought of the day

Me: "That's what I need wes!! A boy who would make mixes!

Wes: "No it isn't"

Me: "what do I need"

Wes: " To find someone you can accept for who they are
            Not who you want them to be"

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Jump off the hot mess express

So I'm sick of my themesong in life being let her cry
and always being the wounded girl in the room
no one gets close anymore
kisses don't mean a thing
and boys have been gone through like water bottles
that's not what I want
it's not who I am
I want to love without restrain
enjoy life to the fullest
to appreciate the small things
I want to become what I once was
the fire has burned out
it's time to rekindle my flame for life
I wanna burn bright
but not in a self destructive way
I wanna take care of someone
and in turn have them take care of me
it's time to focus less on myself more on other's
to just heart is filled with
so much hate resentment and sarcastic comments
it needs not to be
silence is on my top 10 list of things I hate
one thing at a time
I'm going to try to turn off my brain to think of nothing
boys so often talk about
I've never thought of nothing
when I try the word nothing
is being said over and over in my head
If I'm finally pegged as insane
please let it be known I tried
and didn't want to cry
hopefully misery kicked me out
of the house by then
I'll have to get back to you on that one
I kind of want mystery for now
with that I'll leave to breathe life
just breathe

Monday, January 3, 2011

Here's to the Volcano Girls

"A million miles of running and
I hit the wall,
I bounce back and I run some more.
But this is it, I'm giving up,
I'm calling quits.
So get down and meet me on the floor"

2011 let's go new years resolution already broken
once again idgie jumped a train
I'm here alone stuck in a room
surrounded by empty diet coke cans
wearing my usual uniform of highheels and pajamas
I'm sorry that I feel as if I don't know you anymore
I don't really know anyone anymore
not really
but it doesn't matter
are these emotions real or fake
syndicated by what I want to happen
someone to take me away
and take care of me
you think I should take a break from guys
I tried to explain no one gets close to my heart
and that's the problem
this one might make it
well it depends on if
he's worth my heart
but how does anyone know that?
Risks are a bitch
and idgie you're free to go
but remember no man is ever worth your freedom
he has to be free along with you
I love you
always and forever