Sunflowers of Time

The smell of strawberry lemonade


Reminds me of my mother

Her hair blowing in the wind of open windows

Looking perfectly in love with my father

As she dances with him with

To wicked game and doesn’t realize I’m out of bed

I forgot to put the plastic flowers on your grave daddy

I miss you tonight because I’m not sure where I’m going

And I fall in more in love each day

Ready or Not......here I am

Questions big and little
do I start a new one
let the memories of the old one fade to grey
just like the ones in the past
as I change I look inside to remember who I am
it goes beyond my clothes and hair
my skin no longer the same
and somehow
I feel like I know myself better
as if no longer relying on the external
I found the internal again
little girl lost
now little girl found
I guess you do
 really love me underneath it all

Collide

your fingers in my hair
and the conversations we have
are neverending
round and round
we go
and I close my eyes
remembering the way
it once was
all I want is someone
to hold my hand
is that to much to ask?

Bye Bye

I'm sick of living for you
So I'm leaving
slowly but surely
I'll make sure you're ok
but I can't remain around forever
if only I had kept my mouth shut
we would be on the beach right this moment
and you would have asked me to be yours
of course
that will never happen now
you're the kind of girl I can marry
but I can't date
is all you ever say
so bye bye for now
but for the record
I still love you
even if we aren't meant to be

I just want you to be the one to hold my hand

You came like a thief in the night
through the backdoor in my heart
while I was on guard in the front
with walls up and doors locked
just in case you tried anything
with watchful eyes I think I'm all alone
except I feel your hand wrap about my waist
as you pull me in
your breath on my neck
and when our eyes met
I just knew
I'd fallen for you

27's

1/22/11

3:28 am

We left the ordinary behind

and embraced the unknown

Brilliant thought of the day

Me: "That's what I need wes!! A boy who would make mixes!

Wes: "No it isn't"

Me: "what do I need"

Wes: " To find someone you can accept for who they are
            Not who you want them to be"