Mount Hope

My heels sank into the ground
over the grass where
your body lies rotting
but you are not there
tears slowly start falling
out of the corner of my eyes
as I remember that day
these white double doors stared at me
which brings me back to
those moment in which
my skin blistered in the sun
as you forced that rod into my hand
I resented every moment
as the sun beat down on me
and I wished I was somewhere else
and now I would give anything
to be back there
no expectations no realizations
of the hardships of life
so beautiful and innocent
I remained when I took your
hand and we finally went home
Even then I was never
what you wanted me to be
now as I reflect upon my past mistakes
I realize that I will never be
that little girl again
then again I never was
the little girl I should have been
Now, I'm older and less diligent
I, rarely come to see you
because, of the disappointments
I know I would cause even in your slumber
but, know this daddy I love you still
and a piece of you remains always with me
Maybe I can be your desert rose
but I doubt I'll ever live up to my namesake
that is in my eyes though
in yours I already did