Friday, December 24, 2010

Honesty is tiring

I've got to get out of here
I keep saying over and over in my head
but we all know no matter where I go
destruction follows in my wake
poisoning my self along the way
I do it all to numb
 yesterday's misgivings
and tomorrows aftermath
I've dug a hole so big
I don't know if I can get out
or if I even want to
help is my forbidden
4 letter word
yet I cry out save me
to anyone who will listen
but let me tell you a secret
I don't really want your help
I just want to know that you're there


****these 3 things are true
I'm in love with being miserable
I'm in love with my depression
Im afraid to be happy****

1 comment:

Rayne said...

I love when you are honest like that...I love you and I always will. I couldn't leave you,Ruthieloo.
Merry Christmas...remember Him
He has made you beautiful.
Truly.