Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I always wanted to be Kat Stratford

Written Janaury 22, 2008

I can’t imagine what’s going through her head and heart
Since you left her here all alone except for that baby girl with those haunting eyes
I sit here and cry I’m weeping over you and I never even knew you
You made me realize my situation all the emotions that I've been hiding
From everyone I’m scratching at my cage trying to get out and I can’t
It’s killing me I killed my insides with my own actions
When I heard about you yesterday I just wanted to die
You were part of my world before he left
Pure and whole you were to me
Now you’ve abandoned me too
This must’ve been what it was like when the others left too so many years ago
Why go home?
Come be a muse be a lover be a poet be anything but dead
I can’t change the past not even the future it seems like
Fate is all there is to be
Why even move?
We move because if we don’t then we can’t be sedated much longer
Sedation being our ultimate goal in this life to the next
Just to stop the hurt
I guess that’s what you thought too

***Dedicated to Heath Ledger****

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